[Verse 1] I’m taking all these things too far I’m usually joking but recently in art I feel like it’s now time for a real talk, real shock Now listen for the first time in forever I give real walk I joke so much about death I found myself soonly yearning it I got attached to eyes and now hoping for my turn again I wrote a few bars about mental problems Now I lay awake and wonder if myself has got one I’m just being honest. I’m praying God has got us I’m hoping that I understand the skills that they have taught us I joke about myself just so I did it first You can’t use an insult that has already worked If I’m just being honest, I hope I’m staying modest I truthfully believe that someone’s got us, I promise I’ll slowly pick these issues out one by one Finally I’ll be done, I’m done.

[Verse 1] I can tell by the way that you move That you type, that you speak, I can tell that you've been abused I can tell that it's been hard on you living without strength Stumbling and wondering if this will be your break And if this is now your break then is it on the right time? I don't wanna write your eulogy so sweetie hope you're fine I don't wanna be the one to speak in poems at your death party Thinking what it's gonna be I utter when the death parts me I can tell that smile's fake and it kills me I hate of the staged pleasure, where's the real thing? Nobody's here to fix you now. nobody here can heal me If I wake up and I hear the news of nooses made of shoestrings So hold another day, love The urges of today are only pebbles in the pain of A couple people more influenced to give into the rain's shove A couple people decided it's the only way up [Verse 2] I can tell it isn’t easy with the sketches that we miss Lightly made with razors for the canvas on your wrists It’s twisted that your battered up and finally came to this I’m sorry if I helped the crowd or triggered all of it I can see it broad as daylight you’re confused and just so lost Is it really worth it for you to pay a cost Made by several others that just couldn’t ever see Exposing insecurities are crushers of a dream I hate the cycle, hate the feeders I hate the people thinking it’s a joke and let it teeter I hate the people cutting off the branches from the tree I guess what I’m just saying is that I hate me I hate the cycle, hate the feeders I hate the people thinking it’s a joke and let it teeter I hate the people cutting off the living from the roots I guess what I’m just saying is that I hate you

[Verse 1] This music’s medicine for me, it never sits in so properly Etiquette to my property, residence and no robbery Typing it oh so sloppily, versing it all is awkwardly Making the song a somberly track without all my properties Molding it is my pottery, shaping it as an artist Except that I am so artless, except that I am half hearted Except I come off retarded and looking like I’m a narcist I don’t wanna start it cuz it’s just not where my heart sits Society’s my harness and now I just wanna be Everything that I love and everything that I see Everything is too inspiring, hire myself entirely Heightened into a higher seat, but nobody admires me This music is my medicine so I will overdose Packing the rhythm inside of me, then I will get so close Then I’ll stop Then I’ll stop [Verse 2] Pop a couple melodies for telling me it’s not the way You can’t understand the hell in me til Hellen meets a freeway Please hear out my plea, hey, feel like this is pre-k Please hear out my plea, give acknowledgement to me, hey You can’t defeat pain, so just re-greet pain You can’t re-greet pain, so just defeat rain Teacher, teacher, teacher, I need your help This creature, creature, creature, is letting out I need the drug So give it to me to just keep em up I’m getting my meddies one way or another Try to refrain me, try to refrain me

[Verse 1] We all go to the lost and found It’s either heaven or hell and I can’t make heads or tails You wish you hadn’t failed, I couldn’t really care less Don’t mind the way your body shapes or mind the way your hair sets You hate the fact that you can hide scars You’re angered at reality for giving you the right marks You never seen an artist or a poet in reality But gatherdly you did it through your body marks and hackaries A broken string leaves open notes So ready for your testing hope you got it all on what you wrote You’re sick of it, no antidote Hope nobody sees this anecdote It’s hard I get it but it’s life You gotta deal and live it on and give in all your sacrifice And dream it on of you one day forever in this paradise A paradigm of perfectness I hope is fine and will suffice [Chorus 1 - atlas] I was standing at the side of the room Watching sillhouettes dance on the moon Painting cigarettes the color of the death While i'm trying hard to catch my breath Sleeping in but never sleeping enough Ain't it true we always had it rough? No one ever said that it'd be easy But somehow you make it so [Verse 2] 2 years no convo where ya been, love? Heard you had a child and it’s been rough I know it’s hard with this kid stuff But baby can you catch me up? I never can get enough It looks like after all of this it turned out fine A couple bumps along the road but that’s with time Oh, nobody talked about the abuse Nobody seemed to let me know he’s cheating on you Nobody seemed to slip it in he’s beating on you I didn’t have them tell me that you’re not getting through Somebody needs to point it out he’s hurting on you Somebody needs to point it out he’s hurting on you If I only had enough oxygen to deliver this I’d spend it wisely hiding and never promote my hindrance I’d keep myself open and offer up all my innocence Probably make sure that I keep myself safe from wickedness [Chorus 2 - atlas] Watch me drifting into thickening fog Adolescence warning me that it's gone I'm a metaphor that somehow breathes You're a question mark that I can't read But I will answer you eventually And when I do I promise you'll be fine When I do I promise you'll be fine When I do I promise you'll be fine You'll be fine

[Verse 1] Wish it could be easier for me to pull away Wish it could be easier for me to get a day Wish you would just finally forget about me I find myself thinking and regretting these things You told me that you loved me while you’re speaking through your teeth How many times does it take for you to leave me? You were my drug and now I cannot deal with you There’s no melody, barely can still feel with you Elizabeth, I hate to say it but you’re my first love I know it wasn’t easy but I hope I gave a burst of Inertia for you to keep it going and not fake you And I’m sorry for the times that it seemed that I would hate you And I hate you, I admit it. I really wish I didn’t I wish that I could finish all this silly epidemic And I get it that it’s stupid and the feelings never lasted But blast it I hate it that I was the one that crashed it I had it then I went and crushed it now it’s damaged I’ll manage but I kinda hate it that it vanished I’m landed but I cannot stand it How do I move when you put me in a package? How can I run away when I’m not even standing? I tried to pull it off like nothing ever happened I’m gagging, man I can’t even rap it Now all I hear is tapping, tappin I see you all the time but only reminisce Now you’re a hell I miss I admit it baby that that we’re hella split Let’s just be adults and farewell, refit I could lie and say I’m lonely, though Please judge me on the road I choose Everything expressed is now a lonely show Because the lonely road isn’t the road I chose I ain’t getting over you so recently I’m not sure I never have paid my dues but I’m still begging for more I’m still seeking for the one and every time I see you I remember all the times and memories we’ve been through I had conversations about you to God Now I feel stupid for wasting you on His time, I really thought I had it I really thought I wouldn’t manage all this famine Let me say it one more time in case you didn’t get it I talked to God about you and beginning to regret it [Outro] I’m still getting over you so it’s still hard to progress I’m not seeking for another, all these skanks are hopeless Someone else will come along but there’s no rush, it’s no stress But I’m still getting over you so it’s so hard to progress

[Verse 1] I’ll be honest, recently I’ve been regretting things Just hoping for a better outcome praying I can better things This hindrance is anything but modest and the feather stings So how’m I s’pose to manage when I’m crippled and the letter’s ring? I don’t get it but I’ll try, tho Attempt to get it without running to the high Os But it just looks so pleasing moving right, so I’ll try that [Bridge 1] Paint a canvas of misery with a toothbrush Just to prove that I’m cleaning up to roots, uhh [Bridge 2] I promise that I’m fine, I don’t need help If I needed you I wouldn’t need this needle [Verse 1] Don’t think I’m calloused cuz I’m scarred when I think of things That ordinarily an ordinary person never thinks An ordinary person never thinks on death, right? Or how they could achieve it and then get right An ordinary person spends lesser time at computer desks Thinking of what they don’t have and what the other ruler’s set I think my ruler’s set judging how no jeweler's set Or something like that

[Verse 1] I tried to call you but you blocked me I wish it didn’t always come and haunt me I wish I had the courage at the time and I hate it And I wish I didn’t act like it was not, got me I admit it I was cowardice and stupid at the time Now I need to try to heal these open wounds with one more rhyme Melancholy memories are only things I have up here Pick up the phone so I can get through my fear Just let me know that you are there so I don’t feel that I’m alone I don’t think that I can take another dial tone I wish I didn’t have to set another milestone I don’t think that I can take another dial tone Just let me know that you are there so I don’t feel that I’m alone I don’t think that I can take another dial tone [Verse 2] I try to act like I don’t care all it does is remind me that I do And I wish I cherished all the times and the last moments I had with you I can never get them back now and all I have are demons in my thoughts After all this time I wish I could find you but it seems you’re lost I know you’re out there somewhere Living life without care somewhere And we’re breathing the same air, but where? And I swear I’m hoping on, but prayer Doesn’t seem to work, I know it does but seeming watery And hearing all the negativity would never bother me A lot of it is seeming like I’m sitting at a robbery And letting them all rob me of emotional property [Verse 3 - Kevin Forest] Look I know I’ve asked more than once, but I plan to do it again I know it’s not healthy but I need to know Cheyenne Cause people change their mind every single second So if you’ll be mine just for a second I’ll be fine, I’ll feel great, but there’s the dilemma Cause I don’t want to force you but I don’t wanna live without ya I want you to be happy but without you I won’t I want you all the best but the best for me is you

[Verse 1] Can we be honest for a second? Can we all just face it? I try to keep persona of a sad and lonely me but it’s no costume lately I try to make these people think that I don’t care and I’ve no worries but I’m worrying that They might find out that it’s no act and it’s bound to happen a matter a fact I tried introspective, but it failed to be in respective With no directive it’s all defective and it’s all downhill with no objective I’m hoping some relate to this and take some comfort I’m hoping that my privileged self can speak to the suffered [Verse 2] It seems my friends are lost and it’s all my fault That I drove them off and they all have crossed Now only left is fake ones Well I guess I’ll take one They say that hurt people hurt people But I haven’t seen a sinner ride solo Here’s the judgement, oh no Who’s the first? Well, noes goes Can we be honest for a second? Can we all just face it? I try to keep persona of a sad and lonely me but it’s no costume lately Can we be honest for a second? Can we all just face it? I try to keep persona of a sad and lonely me but it’s no costume lately

[Verse 1] They say I know too much useless information I’m patient until I’m crazed as a wage, and oh just wait up I’ll stay until I’ve soaked up all the aspiration And go crazy and hate it too angulated and then wake up It sucks but I’ll keep my mouth shut [Or I won’t, or I won’t, or I won’t] and still get cut Stay blind to all the problems like a Ray Charles of all the world Crunched in like a mosh pit of conflict to watch unfurls Crunched in but I got it, I’m on it, It’s my honor now But I don’t know if I want it or if I really wanna keep it down You will absolutely never ever see me getting crowded I don’t know everything but everything I know about is valid Typing at this keyboard slowly makes my fingers chaliced If lyrics were a liquid I would chug it by the gallon If music was a skill then I would finally have a talent If my words had a meaning you can take em, you can have it [Verse 2] It’s funny how the great will die young But never live to tell their tale or become To their potential, it’s mental to think on what I’ve done Maybe I’m the one who pulled the trigger up on life’s gun Problems they come up and sting us in the butts like hornets Some will have that allergy and they just get aborted Look at the grave stones next time you’re in a cemetery And image all potential in those corpses, but it didn’t happen 6th grade when we met. You were shy but so was I I talked a little bit and you laughed. This friendship felt so right We spoke a little more but alas, nothing is finite We kept it on, and we could relate with the same eyesight You slipped me a note that told me that you kinda liked me But I didn’t really get it and I only look it lightly Nothing lasts forever and some things never begin And some things, they don’t know and they just sit the fence

[Verse 1] I’ll try to break it down to a science I’m trying to simply my thoughts but it just comes off silent The ideas are coming and flowing but just too quietly And I am me so do not react to me like I’m violently Attacking individuals around me, cuz I don’t I’m just pointing out the things that I see and then make a poem I know that some support me but I still feel I’m alone I could probably be a quitter and stop it all but I won’t I try to make it understandable and put in simple words But people haven’t come to realize anything put simple hurts I crush it into 16 bars, my science makes it worse But I will never stop this raving ranting method til it works What am I saying? I’m just stuck in an ignorance Thinking people actually care about how I deliver this I don’t mean to come off hostile or a belligerent But is it really so wrong, if I think on it and figure it? [Chorus] I can’t get it out. I can’t get it out I try expressing myself but it’s a failure as now I try excreting feelings but it comes off always wrong I try to keep it up but I will never be as strong [Verse 2] In the start it would get me kinda nervous When I wanted to go and talk to you but didn't want disservice When I wanted to prove it all to you but didn't out the service Nothing really happened, I feared that they would curve us It only got worse, it only brought hurt It only introduced me all the ways it wouldn't work All my broken fantasies are crazy I'm aware But maybe, just maybe, this feeling we could share It's leaving me impaired, I'm grieving for your care I try my best forgetting but I see you everywhere Everything I'm seeing now relates to you Obsession overtaking now I'm hating you In the end it was worth it, in the end it worked Finally together in the end of war At last, I did it, I'm never hiding At last, I finally did it all in a science